This is where the story ends

Guys i'll not be posting on this blog anymore. You can deblog me. Thank you all for your support. You have been real friends. Hope to meet you in some other corner of cyberspace. Have an interesting life ahead. Love. FG

for my pa

I dedicate this song to my papa, we will over come all the problems ..... i can so relate with it ...

Looking in your eyes I see a paradise
This world that I found is too good to be true
Standing here beside you, want so much to give you
This love in my heart that I'm feeling for you

Let 'em say we're crazy, don't care 'bout that
Put your hand in my hand baby, don't ever look back
Let the world around us just fall apart
Baby, we can make it if we're heart to heart

And we can build this dream together, standing strong forever
Nothing's gonna stop us now
And if this world runs out of lovers, we'll still have each other
Nothing's gonna stop us, nothing's gonna stop us now
Woh woh oh

I'm so glad I found you, I'm not gonna lose you
Whatever it takes, I will stay here with you
Take it to the good times, see it through the bad times
Whatever it takes is what I'm gonna do

Let 'em say we're crazy, what do they know
Put your arms around me baby, don't ever let go
Let the world around us just fall apart
Baby, we can make it if we're heart to heart

And we can build this dream together, standing strong forever
Nothing's gonna stop us now
And if this world runs out of lovers, we'll still have each other
Nothing's gonna stop us, nothing's gonna stop us now

I'm so glad I found you, I'm not gonna lose you
Whatever it takes, I will stay here with you
Take it to the good times, see it through the bad times
Whatever it takes is what I'm gonna do

Let 'em say we're crazy, what do they know
Put your arms around me baby, don't ever let go
Let the world around us just fall apart
Baby, we can make it if we're heart to heart

And we can build this dream together, standing strong forever
Nothing's gonna stop us now
And if this world runs out of lovers, we'll still have each other
Nothing's gonna stop us, nothing's gonna stop us

Ooh, all that I need is you
All that I ever need
And all that I want to do
Is hold you forever, forever and ever

And we can build this dream together, standing strong forever
Nothing's gonna stop us now
And if this world runs out of lovers, we'll still have each other
Nothing's gonna stop us, nothing's gonna stop us
Woh oh oh-oh-oh
Nothing's gonna stop us, nothing's gonna stop us now
Hey baby

And we can build this dream together, standing strong forever
Nothing's gonna stop us now
And if this world runs out of lovers, we'll still have each other
Nothing's gonna stop us, nothing's gonna stop us now

Start living from Monday...

...whatever the result may be.

Disgusting !

a) THE TIMES OF INDIA : for writing on their first page which caste got how many ministers. Congress may support the idea of distributing ministries as per castes but TOI isn't doing too well by propogating the idea. This could have been ignored. If we're reminded of castes each day how do we make it irrelevant in the 21st century?

b) MEDIA GOING GA GA OVER IIT-CBSE-ICSE TOPPERS: If this isn't pressure over students then what is? Do Harvard toppers make it to front page news in USA Today? Are school toppers Breaking News on CNN & BBC? There are full page ads from the tutorial classes. Success is not entirely equal to getting through IIT or topping the CBSE. We seriously need career counselling for class Xth student. Not everyone is made for science. So many students would fare better if they had taken up some other subjects. Counselling is needed so that children can know what they would actually like to do rather than do what this media/parents/teachers' pressure make them choose.

I had to write today

I didn't write when Bombay didn't turn out to vote (and gave me something to tease 'Mumbaikars' forever), I didn't write when I voted for the very first time (on 13th), I didn't write a lots of things that have been happening lately, but i am very satisfied by the way the Election results turned out. I think its because the youth voted in large numbers this time. We don't want caste (Mulayam or Mayawati...eeow eeow), we don't want religion (LK Advani). Congress is the best alternative available (anyways i always wanted Manmohan Singh, Chidambaram n Kamalnath).

Life after being Out- Its freezing here

After her initial outburst, Mom is talking normally to me. Now Dad is acting uncomfortable around me (Bebe says they are following the 'Good Cop Bad Cop' routine). Yesterday we were out on an evening walk(yes we can do that here in this small town), we hadn't gone half a block when Dad declared he wanted a haircut and left. As it is he was walking quite. Bebe says talk to him if you are feeling so uncomfortable or forget about it.

On some other topic I was telling Mom that the trip to Delhi was a waste, he butted in and said," Whatever happened is for the good, otherwise we would not have come to know of your activities, you would have kept us in the Dark".

Sometimes I can't even believe that all this has happened. I am hating that bastard cousin so so much for outing me that I can't even begin to describe it. Its so easy to hate someone you loved so much.

The series of events/happenings of last few days i'll be chronicalling(?) eventually. Right now its too hard.
PS: I saw 'Juste une question d'amor'. Its the correct movie(after a bit of editing and all). The only problem is that the subtitles are too fast and I'll have to sit with Mom to explain some of the things. Right now I neither want to edit anything or sit with Mom and talk on this topic. The daily ten minute refrences to it are enough to spoil my whole day.

The shit hits the fan or How to Come out in One Go or Its better to have wise enemies than Foolish Friends

I love my cousin David. Pussyfooting 'coming out' for a long long time,I finally came out to him, last year. I told him that coming out was difficult for me but i would tell others myself on my own time. He wasn't very supportive but promised that he won't tell anyone about it.
Obviously he sympathises with me because he has come out to everyone on my behalf, after all what are brothers for? First he told his mother. That did not seem to help much so the same month that I came out to him, the good Samaritan told Mama, "Bhai is going on the wrong track, please help him". Eventually Mami and the other Mama and the other Mami and their collective children (Age 11 to 17) came to know. I was not specifically told but i don't think they would have left their married girls (Age 24 and 27) out of the loop.
When everyone was already knowing about this David thought letting his 'girlfriend' know would help him earn some brownie points with her. In effect by the time June'08 ended each and every person in the family knew that I was gay- except the people who really mattered, my parents- exactly opposite to how I wanted it to be.

I was home till August. I met these people regularly in my haughty-cocky manner. Being ever the Mr Sarcastic and Mr On the Morally High Pedestal. My kind family members never let me feel uncomfortable about the fact that they secretly smirked. :D

After repeatedly bothering his mum about me, Maasi finally told it all to mom Mom during Diwali. " I was afraid you will die when you hear this, that is why i didn't tell you before" she said,"but Bebe (who was Cousin's friend before I met him) is causing too much of a botheration to David."

Having finally accomplished the task he had set out to accomplish, Mr David the self styled saviour of my parents, appointed himself as Secret Agent in the service of my Mom. After all his only worry was that FG ke ''Mummy-Papa ka kya hoga". On Bebe's face he would always tell that 'things will turn out for the good and he wished us happiness in our life together etc etc' and then report the happenings and my secret encounters with Bebe to Mom.This has been going on since September (or was Diwali in October?). So now mom is absolutely updated right till yesterday when I was with Bebe (including our lover's spat during the holiday).

Mom in turn updated me with all this today. She says now I have to get married because now its their 'izzat ka sawal.'

With everyone turning filmy, Bebe and I have given each other filmy style kasams that we won't talk to him and have promptly deleted him from our Orkut accounts. I called him up yesterday and told him that it was the last conversation I was having with him. We don't know how else to take revenge on him. We don't want to do anything that would point fingers at our pavitra relationship because anything we do to him, fingers will be pointed at us. I have suggested to Bebe (who wanted to get his girlfriend eve teased LOL) to lay low for 4-5 years and then do something that he won't even know what hit him...